notthewees 248 Posted September 27, 2021 Popular Post Share Posted September 27, 2021 (edited) Hello, I'm [meme joke name]. I'm in my late twenties and I love reading and studying nerdy stuff. I'm also a transgender man, which means that I was born a girl but decided it was not for me. I've sought some medical intervention that has improved my life immeasurably, but a $50,000 penis is probably not in the cards. I have a lifelong interest in pee desperation and cis men peeing. When I was little, I used to make myself desperate on summer days so I would have a forceful enough stream to pee standing up outside, which could be read as an early sign of two different things. I've had an eye for male desperation ever since I was in third grade and sat next to a cute, timid, often overdressed rich boy who was afraid of peeing during school hours and would sometimes get trapped in agony with a bursting bladder towards the end of the day. I could see him jiggling his knees and squeezing his penis under the desk. I was too young to be aroused by it, but it fascinated me. I started to anticipate the day he would finally wet his khakis, but he never did. When I got older, my feelings about my body and gender norms became so fraught that I repressed my attraction to men for a long time. I ran with lesbians because they let me be butch and Capital-Q Queer, even though I always chickened out of actual relations with women. I would always feel a frission when I heard a random hot guy say something like, "he told me I would fail the exam if I left but I just...had...to piss so f***ing bad, I didn't care. Now I have to explain this f***ing grade to my parents." I couldn't help thinking about men, and I couldn't help thinking about what it would be like if one of them let me hold his penis and aim for him, when he had a very full bladder... Realizing I was trans allowed me to admit I was gay for men, not lesbian for women, and that in turn made me finally admit that I have this random isolated kink of wanting to see men desperate to pee. But then that became complicated. I'd always used women's bathrooms, but the culture of the women's bathroom is so paranoid that even a trans man who doesn't pass under other circumstances will get thrown out. Most trans men are forced to use men's rooms before we feel ready. I remember my uncle posting this horrible fantasy he had on Facebook, about how he wanted a trans woman to use the women's room wherever he was just so he could beat her face in. I knew then that there would be a bridge period where I looked wholly androgynous and I would have to train my bladder starting at home for my own safety. If you can get horny from that, it sure does help. It upsets a lot of people to hear that someone is eroticizing their own oppression, but if you've ever searched for "f****t bully jock humiliation" videos on PornHub, you'll know that LGBTQ people are old hands at it. Even if I was safe in the men's room, I felt ashamed of the possibility of becoming aroused there. Glimpsing a man casually peeing or hearing men peeing from inside a stall doesn't do it for me 99.9% of the time, but if I hear a guy rush in in a panic, struggle with his belt and zipper, and then groan in relief as he unleashes a lengthy firehose gush into the urinal, I can't promise I won't get an involuntary voyeuristic thrill from that. In other words, I'm the trans bathroom pervert the media warned you about. Or not - reading a cavalcade of colorful posts from this forum's collection of hyper-observant cis bathroom perverts has made me think I might not be a monster. After all, I'm a captive audience and not hurting anyone, or recording them without their consent, or anything else disturbing. Maybe the euphoria of realizing I'm not a complete monster is why I finally made an account instead of just lurking. Too much trans bathroom angst has fueled a whole power fantasy: I want to be the one holding the keys. I want to make a cis man wait...and wait...and wait until he bursts. I want him to experience a loss of control that is rare in sober adult cis men, and I want it to be all my doing. Sir. Mister [name]. Please let me go. I've been so good. I've been holding it for so long. I'm gonna wet my pants. Please, sir. Please. My fantasy is having a mildly submissive BF who would hold for me at safe intervals on a 100% consensual basis, as a treat. I would love to take him out to dinner and ply him with iced tea, or tell him to hold all day at work and come home to me with his morning coffee still sloshing inside his swollen, aching bladder. I want to play the mean teacher and make him beg. I want to reduce an adult to abject begging and pleading for relief, which I may or may not grant. Please, I can't hold it. I have to piss so bad, sir. I'm so sorry. Please let me go, sir, pleeeeeease. These thoughts come to me unbidden. They turn me on so much. It's funny because of how vanilla my other fantasies are. I'm too shy to upload any videos, but I may try to write some goofy male desperation fiction to pull my weight around here. I saw someone saying we need more male desperation stories. Happy holding! Edited September 27, 2021 by notthewees grammar (see edit history) PrincessEsther, gottliebeln, VanCanto99 and 4 others 2 5 Quote Link to comment
VanCanto99 286 Posted September 28, 2021 Share Posted September 28, 2021 Welcome! It's nice to meet other trans folks here. It's hard to describe it but your story reminded me of when I started becoming fascinated with peeing, granted more so with femme or androgynous folks than masc(but tbh anyone peeing can be hot). Being trans and nonbinary is weird complicated experience but I absolutely relate to the bathroom anxiety part. More or less forced to use the mens restroom for now even when I dress femme/andro unless there happens to be a neutral bathroom. After using a shared gender neutral bathroom I felt that sense of euphoria that comes from that. It's only been a handful of times and no one around though thanks to covid. I imagine if I was in a similar scenario and heard a femme person rush to the toilet and gushed out a desperate pee I'd also think I would have a hard time not listening in and enjoy myself. Either way, always here if you need to talk to other trans piss loving folks ❤️ Quote Link to comment
Rose writes 89 Posted September 29, 2021 Share Posted September 29, 2021 Your interests are extremely different than mine, but I admire how well you articulate and explain them. You should absolutely write more, because you’re clearly talented. Quote Link to comment
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