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Has this fetish always been a constant in your life?

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I was sort of into it during my real early years, I quit for about a year because of a genuine accident I had because of this, but then started again after like a year or so. Ever since then desperation and wetting has become a part of my daily life. 

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I didn't realise it was something that interested me sexually until quite a bit later (like maybe 18-19) but I have been fascinated by pee desperation since I was like 3 or 4 years old. I would remember the scenes in shows with characters desperate to pee and replay them in my head, or make up scenarios of desperate characters when daydreaming, and I didn't know why. I just knew it was something that I really liked thinking about. 

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"Has this fetish always been a constant in your life? "

 
I think it's always being part of my personality.
I don't remember any certain moment but I kind of remember that when I was maybe around 5-8 years old (estimate) I already knew that girls have different style to pee than boys have and it felt somehow mysterious and fascinating (non-erotic way of course at that age).
Of course this can be also just a normal thing for all kids, I don't know.
 
I also remember when I was maybe around 10 years old (estimate again) there was one incident where we were driving on a forest road by a car when suddenly my stepfather stops the car and my mother jumped out into the woods to pee.
And that happened literally just a few minutes before we would arrive at our destination where would be a proper toilet (or outhouse actually, but anyway).
I knew our destination was just  "around the corner" and surely she knew it too so this seemed like a strange solution.
I remember how I speculated on my own mind that was the situation really so serious that she couldn't anymore wait 2-3 minutes longer?
That whole situation felt interesting or kind of exciting, but non-erotic way at that age.
(I was in the backseat and I didn't hear what they were talking so I didn't know anything about the situation until the car stops.)
 
Then, around puberty when erotic things generally started to get interesting, at the same time female peeing / desperation started also be interesting in erotic way.
 
 
On 6/14/2020 at 1:25 AM, Mbgpeelover said:

but there have been times in my life when through shame or circumstance or deliberately avoiding it that I have tried to keep away from this fetish. Probably the longest I went without reading about it, watching it, writing about it and actively thinking about it was about half a year. But then as soon as I see or hear someone desperate it comes flooding back and it’s like an addiction for a long time again. 

 
I have also had a very similar situation.
I used to read stories and watch pictures etc. on the Internet but there was one moment when I stopped doing that on purpose.
I'm not sure why I stopped it. I might have just met a girl and it felt kind of cheating, or maybe there was some other reason, I don't remember for sure.
But then after a while, one day ( I think I was maybe around 17-18 then)  I was in the school hallway waiting for the next class to begin when a few girls walked nearby and I heard when one of them told another how badly she needs to pee.
Hearing that made me feel so excited that I realized I don't want to try live without that fetish.

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I feel like it started early for me.

I don't recall my age, but I remember being taken to a distant relative's house. They had two young children. We had just met, when the little girl, who was maybe around 5 or so, wet herself while sitting on the stoop. She had made no motion to rush to the toilet, as I felt I had to to avoid accidents. She just peed, as though it were nothing. This seemed odd to me. My parents had made it clear that it was not okay to wet yourself, unless it was a true accident - and you had made an effort to stop it.

A short while after, when I was in first grade, David wet himself in class. The sound had drawn my attention and I remember being mesmerised by the stream of liquid gold that splashed onto the floor. This incident had made me truly curious. I went home, stood in front of the television, and purposely wet my jeans. The feeling was so exciting, but also there was comfort in the warmth as it flowed downward, soaking the thick denim. There was also a fear that I would be found out. Afterwards, once the pungent tang of urine filled my nostrils, and the fear intensified that now my 'accident' could have been sniffed out, I removed the sticky, wet jeans, and hid them in the laundry pile. My mother never asked me about it.

When I was 10, I was assaulted. During the incident, I wet myself in fear. Immediately afterward, I climbed into the shower, in my sopping clothes, turned on the water, and sobbed. I also began wetting the bed at night. This moment in my life was traumatic. I did my best to hide my shameful bedwetting and my parents never asked about it. Due to this time, especially being at the age when sexuality begins to bud in children, shame and fear left me conflicted and repressed.

I had trouble having 'vanilla' sexual thoughts, but I found myself daydreaming quite a bit about girls in my class, a few teachers, and actresses having accidents - and me there to comfort them. This somehow brought them down to my level, and off the pedestal that I had elevated them to in my mind. However, it made actual interaction with human women people tough. There may be handwritten fanfiction involving wetting that I wrote in a folder, in a trunk, in a lockbox, in a safe, in a non-disclosed location.

For years, I was terrified of having an accident in public, and wore pads to catch any leaks. I remember my OAB making itself more known when I was in college. I had more issues with urgency, used the toilet whenever I could, and did my best to hide the sudden burning shame when I leaked. I have a mix of OAB and stress IC, and there were some close calls and some sodden pads. When the stress got worse, my OAB got worse.

During the end of my first year in a two year programme in college, my PTSD became an issue - and I found myself out of my programme, out of my house, and crammed into a side room of the flat that the sister of an old friend rented. I was working a job I hated and incredibly depressed. One day, after a shit shift, I walked into the tiny shower stall in my room, fully clothed sans shoes, and purposely pissed in my fucking pants. The hot, pungent liquid flowed out of me, warming my thick work pants, and bled away the stress that was killing me. It was so wonderful. It wasn't sexual, per se. There was something about taking back the control that I fought so hard to keep, to let down the barrier and relax. I think I cried.

From that moment, I started indulging in intentional pants wetting. When the stress was burning me alive, I put out the flames by pissing on them. I purchased a plain brown cardboard box of belted protective undergarments. I began experimenting with wearing diapers, and learned the bliss of a controlled, totally hidden wetting into a diaper.

One night, I drank a Guinness. I don't normally drink. Tipsy and daring, I tried messing. I fucking hated it. I freaked out so badly over it, I tossed the box of diapers into the dumpster, and drove for two hours straight to get my mind off of the feeling. I swore off diapers, wetting, messing, anything...

It took a few more years, and deeper exploration to return to wetting. Now that my OAB is screaming at me, day and night, wetting comes easier. I think after soaking myself in my car on the way home from work - and my husband being really cool about my accident - I got back into the whole fetish thing. He knows what I like. It's not his jam, but he is cool with me doing it. He's one of the good ones.

It is part of who I am. There are some dark bits, but honestly, taking back the control and wetting on purpose seems all the sweeter.

 

 

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Well I guess mine started out as a teenager. While babysitting I would steal cloth diapers and sit on the toilet and piss in them. I guess that is why I still like cloth and plastic pants. I still wear cloth diapers to this day, so I guess I've had a life long fetish.

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Iv always been interested in the idea of people wetting themselves- I’ll be honest I think TV influenced how often it would happen around me when younger- I remember wanting to see people wet themselves just out of curiosity. When I was about 14 I discovered a particular anime that features a character with a weakened bladder when nervous and this causes them to wet themselves because of (basically) hentai logic. 

Before when hearing/seeing mention of people needing the toilet allot I also felt it so id watch that and some other stuff I could find to help me pee- especially after touching myself to try clean it out,

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I think it has been for me, and I believe it started when I was around 6 or 7 years old.

I had a best friend in school who would always put off going to the toilet to pee when at school so I remember him being desperate when walking home fairly often which I think is where my interest in guys needing to pee came from. However, when it comes to wetting, that must have been around the same time as well, my first memory of wetting myself was when I was playing xbox games with my cousin and I was getting more and more desperate as we played, and I remember leaking into my trackpants quite a lot before actually full on wetting myself. That must also be where my specific fetish for peeing in trackpants came from as well to be honest!

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