Damnation 247 Posted March 31, 2020 Popular Post Share Posted March 31, 2020 (edited) It has been an exhausting day. I didn't sleep well last night. I missed my school classes but woke up for our group work. Everything has been so confusing. I drew/painted some pair of ballerina shoes for the 30-day drawing challenge we're having with friends. After that I just ended up lounging on the couch with my phone and daydreaming about holding and chilling with diapers. I went to the toilet, still floating in my fantasies and felt a silent growl from my tummy. I was hungry. I sighed and went to the kitchen to see if there was something to eat. I had a package of chili-sweet potato soap in the fridge so I decided to microwave it. I sprinkled some pumpkin seeds on top of the soup. As I was spooning the yellow soup towards my mouth, I finally made the decision to do an intentional hold. The thing was, I didn't want to do it with the clothes I was currently wearing. I was having a beige tank top and black, loose college pants. Underneath I had my pink pajama shorts with pictures of monsters or something. I wanted feel cute and this outfit wasn't helping at all. I was dirty and sweaty so I wanted to take a shower before I change into clean clothes. And my hair was tangled af, so I wanted to brush it before going to shower. I usually always have some kind of water glass lingering around my house. I was thirsty so I hunted that glass and found it from the living room. It was almost empty but I drank the water that was left in it and went outside for a cigarette. I was thinking having a cute dress and snapchatted with my best friend X. I told him what I was about to do. It's not his thing but I like how I'm able to be open about my interests without feeling weird. Well, it's kinda strange tbh because I usually never tell anyone irl about these things, but still tho. I was already starting to build up. I wasn't even surprised. X always likes to joke about how I'm an human straw; everything I drink, comes straight through and I need to use the toilet pretty damn often. After I came back in and took my jacket off, I felt like I was freezing. I grabbed my yellow hoodie and put it on. I got my spray conditioner and my two hair brushes. The other one is light pink tangle teezer and the other one is small, light purple and glittery My Little Pony brush. Before I started to brush my hair, I wanted to get more water and make some boiled water because I wanted some tea. I had my worn-out red, long hair on a loose ponytail so I opened it up and let my hair go wild. As I mentioned before, my hair was super tangled. I went through the hair with my fingers at first to solve the biggest tangles. The electric kettle was humming loud. I sprayed my hair with the conditioner, it's supposed to help with the tangles. Hisss hisss hissss hiss. The combination of the humming and hissing was making my bladder tingle a bit. Hisss hisss hissss hiss hiss. I sprayed all around my hair and took the tangle teezer and started brushing. Little by little I went through my hair. After brushing some time, the boiled water was ready. It was time to refill my water glass and get the tea. I took my black flower printed bowl-like tea mug and choose to drink wild berry infusion. It's soooo good. I headed back to the living room and continued brushing my hair. Hissss hisss hiss. I sprayed some more conditioner to my hair. I took a huuuuuge sip from my water and then changed the brush to the My Little Pony one. I really like that sound that the brush makes when going through my hair. It's so relaxing... My need to go was notable. I went to the bathroom half an hour ago and I was already at a point where I couldn't ignore my urge to pee. Nice, bladder, nice. I'm not going to pee, don't you even think about it. I'm talking to my bladder, what a nice level of insanity. After I was ready with my hair, I still hadn't even touched the tea. I don't like to use milk in it, so it was too hot drink straight away. Now it had cooled off so I took 15 minutes to chill and drink it. When I finished the tea, my bladder was begging to be released. I was afraid that I'm going to lose it before I even get dressed nicely. My excitement got a small hit but I didn't think that too much, all my focus was on my constantly growing desire to relieve myself. I decided to go for a smoke before I was going to the shower. I was walking around the yard with tiny and careful but fast steps, it was impossible to stand still. When I came back in, my mouth was dry so I had to drink. I was feeling some dampness in my undies. I wasn't leaking myself but I think some dribbles might have escaped. Idk. I took my clothes off and watched my naked reflection in the mirror. There was a small bulge in my stomach. The hot water running against my skin and pussy certainly didn't help me not to pee. And in a minute, I caught myself peeing. I washed myself and adored the cute soap bubbles on my skin. I came out and wrapped my hair in black towel and put my white, warm and puffy bathrobe on. I felt suuuuuper comfy. Then it was time to put that cute clothing on I had dreamed about all this time. At first I took pastel colored pull-up diaper. I felt happy. It felt so nice and comfy and puffy and everything. I was kinda happy that I lost it in the shower because now I had time to enjoy the diaper. On top of the diaper I put black and white striped pantyhose and a black, flowery, A-shaped miniskirt. And for a shirt, I chose orange, tight shirt that revealed my shoulders. That made me crave orange juice. Luckily there was some left in the fridge. My shiny and large unicorn mug with a straw was in a dish so I took a regular glass and headed to my pc. I started writing and got really drawn away from the reality until suddenly I became aware of my extremely full bladder. I hadn't even drunk that much, just the orange juice. I was chatting with another friend and he said that I should hold it until 1am. I was a bit horrified because I already really needed to pee, but then again, it was only 35 minutes. Shouldn't be too hard, right? I can do this. Needless to say, concentrating to the writing was nearly impossible. And I was so thirsty. I tried to take only small sips but my mouth kept getting dry. 15 minutes. I was struggling. My whole body was in tension and I couldn't focus on anything else than not peeing myself. 8 minutes. I peeked constantly the time from my phone and every minute felt like it was an eternity. The time was passing sooooooooo slooooooooowlyyyyyy. 5 minutes. I can do it. My bladder was aching a bit but I was going to make it. 2 minutes. I started counting the seconds. I couldn't stand still but I couldn't walk so I ended up spinning. 1 minute. I was so close and I was so relieved that I would make it that I almost failed at the border of succeeding. But I didn't. Instantly when I saw the clock was 1 am, the slow but intense spout began. I was standing a big smile on my face, enjoying the warmth spreading in my diaper. I was proud of myself and on an cloud 9. Edited March 31, 2020 by Damnation (see edit history) accident_haver, JackedUp, scinosensation and 5 others 4 4 Quote Link to comment
Guest Flyboy Posted April 1, 2020 Share Posted April 1, 2020 Sounds fun! I'm not as much into the holding itself, but I must say I do enjoy having a tired and weakened bladder for the next several hours or more after holding for so long. That's when I really start to enjoy wearing a diaper, because I have a "legitimate" reason to do so. Ever heard of the rapid desperation procedure? Quote Link to comment
Damnation 247 Posted April 1, 2020 Author Share Posted April 1, 2020 10 hours ago, Flyboy said: Ever heard of the rapid desperation procedure? Hmmmm, not sure. 🤔 Quote Link to comment
Guest Flyboy Posted April 1, 2020 Share Posted April 1, 2020 This is what I was referencing. If you search online for "rapid desperation," you'll get several similar examples. Basically it gets your body to the point of desperately needing to pee, to the point where many will do so involuntarily within an hour of starting to hold. Based on my personal experience, that desperation then lingers for the next several hours as your body continues to produce more urine and your bladder is completely worn out. https://www.omorashi.org/topic/755-an-experiment-in-rapid-desperation/ Quote Link to comment
Damnation 247 Posted April 1, 2020 Author Share Posted April 1, 2020 4 hours ago, Flyboy said: This is what I was referencing. If you search online for "rapid desperation," you'll get several similar examples. Basically it gets your body to the point of desperately needing to pee, to the point where many will do so involuntarily within an hour of starting to hold. Based on my personal experience, that desperation then lingers for the next several hours as your body continues to produce more urine and your bladder is completely worn out. https://www.omorashi.org/topic/755-an-experiment-in-rapid-desperation/ Okay. I'm not sure if I understood correctly but I think I've noticed this happening at some level (or something similar to it) to me but I haven't ever aimed for that to happen. I've done multiple holds on a same day and the latter ones are always harder because it feels like my muscles are weak/numb/tired. I've also noticed that if I have held a lot for one reason or another on several days, it becomes harder to stay in control of my bladder. Usually I dribble a little at those times but never lost the total control of my bladder accidentally. On the other hand, I think it's mentally easier to lose the control if I feel safe to do so. I've never had fully involuntary accidents in situations where I didn't want them to happen. Tangosierra97 and Bluesman59 2 Quote Link to comment
Guest Flyboy Posted April 2, 2020 Share Posted April 2, 2020 Sounds like you've essentially accomplished the same thing, but to a somewhat lesser degree. In truth, I've never physically lost control by doing this, but more of a mental loss. The urge gets so bad that I mentally just can't withstand the urge to go. After I break the seal though, I continue to have very strong, frequent urges that keep me either constantly running to the bathroom, or saturating my diaper. It's fun! Quote Link to comment
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