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Literally the most off-topic question ever but- do you guys face or face away from your shower head? I've had this question since the day of my birth I tell you. I would always see those actors on television who face their shower head. Is that like a normal thing? I always have my back facing the shower head, only ever turning around to wash shampoo and stuff out my hair. Even if I'd like to face the shower head, I always have my showers at burning temperatures. Only my back can handle that boiling water dude. But seriously, is facing your shower head normal?
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I've been wanting to get this fantasy off my chest for a while, and where better to put this then anonymously on a fetish website. I've said before I'd love to dominate my partner, but I was specifically talking about omorashi. I fantasize of being physically and mentally abused by my partner. I mean I want to be kicked, slapped, punched, belittled, manipulated, all that stuff. I'm not even a masochist. I have a serious phobia of blood, heart beats, veins, all that stuff. I have a very low tolerance for pain, which is why this fantasy of mine has always confused me. Like, I want to be on my knees, drooling and begging. But why? I don't know. I'd act it out and everything in my mirror. I'd tie my hands and just bawl my eyes out, begging to literally nothing. Why am I like this dude? Am I into BDSM? No. I just want to be assualted. Why? I don't know man.
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Lately, I just feel so out of it. I use this website regularly when I'm not doing work. It's been really fun here but I just need to get this stuff off my chest. I don't really have any friends to vent to, but hey, I can talk to you guys. I'm gonna divide my problems into different sections because this is gonna be long. Honestly, I don't think anyone is going to read all of this, but I mean, writing all of this will make me feel a bit better. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Chronic Idiopathic Urticaria This may not be my biggest problem ever, but my god is it messing with me. I've had CIU since I was a kid. If you don't know what CIU is, it's reacurring hives with no cause. Sometimes, at the most random times of the day, I'd get bumps all over my arms, legs, etc. The small bumps itched, and the big bumps hurt. I use to have huge bumps that wouldn't go away for days and I'd just be in constant pain. My mom use to take me to get blood tests to see what the heck was wrong with me but they never found anything. Of course, it's not as bad as it use to. I take good medication now. When I was kid, I'd wake up with a part of my body swollen. I've woken up with a swollen lip and hand, it's even happened on my eye (I will never forget how painful that day was.) Now, it's usually just small bumps on my arms and legs. Though, it's been interfeering with my work lately. I get them more at the day than night now, and it's freaking annoying. I'll be trying to get my work done but I can't stop scratching my damn arm/leg. Again, it's not the biggest of my problems, but lately, it's been taking a toll on me and my work. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Tics Ugh, tics. I'm not absolutely positively sure I have tourette syndrome because I haven't mentioned this to my doctor yet. There was a time in my childhood where I started to develop this weird 'twitch,' at least that's what my parents use to call. I would regularly feel the urge to 'twitch.' My parents use to yell at me for it, telling me to just stop, and I could, but the urge was always there and pretty hard to ignore. After a year of this, it just stopped, and I was happy. Of course I'd feel the urge here in there but it wasn't as strong as before, I could just ignore it and go on with my day. Unfortunately, it came back, damn. It came back as a new tic, throat clearing. God did I hate this tic. This tic was something I felt really ashamed of, mostly because of my parents. My parents would constantly tell me to "stop with that little cough, it's annoying," and it made me feel bad because this tic was so loud, and I felt ashamed I couldn't control it. This tic lasted a long time, and just as the last tic, it stopped one day, and I was happy again. But OF COURSE, it came back. And guess the fuck what, the twitch was back. Damn. I have it now to this day and it's been getting worse. People give me weird looks when I twitch and it's embarrasing. I'm gonna mention this to my doctor because I seriously don't want to deal with this shit anymore. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Body-Focused Repetitive Behavior Pain, pain, pain, and pain. I use to bite my lip a lot when I little kid. It wasn't that bad, it was just little nibbles. These little nibbles gradually got more extreme as I grew older. Now, I'm fucking biting the skin off my lips. The worst part, I don't even know when I'm doing it half of the time. I am constantly, and I mean constantly, biting my the skin off lips 24/7, every day. I only realize I'm biting my lips when the damage is already done. My lips look horrendous. Cuts, bruises, etc. I can't even smile or open my mouth wide anymore, unless I wanna stretch out 20 cuts. I remember one time I was doing weird faces in the mirror. I did that thing where you grab the sides of your mouth and stretch it out, sticking your tounge out. Guess what happened when I did that. All of my cuts opened and my lips looked like a bloody mess. I've tried to use chapstick before but 5 minutes later it's gone. I lick it off without knowing, just like the lip biting. Now, we wear masks in public. I can cover my busted lips now! Though, it's still very, very painful. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Low-Self Esteem My self-esteem is lower than low. Ever since I was a kid, whenever I looked in the mirror I would ask myself, "Why the hell do I look so ugly?" I'm not like the those people who are obviously good looking but call themselves ugly for the compliments. I mean, I am fucking ugly. My body is not the problem, I'm just really self-conscious about my face. My face doesn't match my gender. I wrote my pronounes as they/them, but that's really because I don't care what gender I'm seen as. You can imagine me as a girl, or a guy. It's up to the people who see my content. I won't be posting videos or photos anyway. But again, my face does not match my gender. If I ever changed my hair to the gender my face matches, people would think I was the oppisite gender. My body on the other hand, It's decent. I dare say I 'like' my body. I'm not comfortable wearing a bathing suit but I like my body enough to look in the mirror and say, "Wow, you look good." But I can't show my face on camera. I hate taking pictures of myself. The only picture I have of myself on my phone is an old picture from when I was a kid. Whenever I see myself on camera, I look worse than I look in the mirror. My self-esteem isn't as bad as it used to. Though I may not have any friends, I'm doing pretty good on my own. Of course, there are many other causes of my low-self esteem, but I don't feel like typing anymore. This vent is long enough as it is. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- If you made it this far and actually read all of that venting shit, props to you. You wasted your time reading my problems. But I appreciate you listening and hope you have a happy, healthy llife.
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So this thread doesn't actually have any actual omo in it, sorry everyone. It was 2:30 A.M. and I realized I had a project due in like 10 hours so I rushed out of bed to do it. I clicked on a video my professor wanted me to watch and as I was watching it, I started to think that one of the models looked VERY suspiciously like a person wetting their jeans. Skip to 6:15 to see what I'm talking about. There is even a little notch at the top that looks like a groin area where the wetness is spreading from. I literally can't stop thinking about people wetting themselves please send help XD
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In my opinion, it is by far blond by frank ocean with good kid mad city by Kendrick Lamar in second. Blond is extremely beautiful and if anyone hasn’t heard it then I would highly recommend you listen to it right now. The quality of each song stays consistent, it’s amazing and I don’t think any other album out there comes close to eclipsing it this decade.
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♡♡♡♡♡♡♡ Hello everyone! ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡ Some of you might know me, most of you don't. I post sometimes and I've made a lot of friends on here. I just want to make a big post so it's easier than messaging everyone... I struggle with BPD, if any of you don't know what it is look here: http://www.mentalhealth.com/home/dx/borderlinepersonality.html I have ruined a lot of relationships because of this. No matter if the other is a jerk, BPD makes me 10x more of a jerk. Emotions I feel, they blast out of me and I can't shut up about everything I am thinking and panicking about. Lately, I've been through a rough patch with a heart attack, family dying, home problems, PTSD and suicidal thoughts. These problems are in the past now, this week I've overcome them. But BPD is not as easy as it hurts everyone I talk to, if only they knew about it and could just ignore me... I try so hard to make people happy because I don't want them to know BPD is a part of me, since no medication helps and there's a low chance I'll get better. I've never told anyone I have it because I try really hard to keep the people I love, but these past few months I've been so vulnerable and stressed (which makes it 10x worse) that I haven't paid much attention and I've hurt too many loved ones. Anyway, I'm taking a break from the internet. Facebook, twitter, instagram, youtube, omo, literally everything. I'm not talking to anyone anymore, even friends, as I've realized it's better for them if I am alone, I'm not saying this as a mean thing. Some people stress me out too far or aren't direct enough with how they feel towards me, which BPD can take a toll if I don't calm down quick enough. I need to figure out ways to calm down easier than meditation (which has helped me a lot the past week) and teach myself to not use such sad or angry responses and thoughts so quickly. For two weeks, I'm going to completely cut myself off from the media world, except for Netflix (honestly, I need some entertainment). I won't be using my phone, or laptop unless it's video games. Although, I will check omo until April 1st, so if any of you have any suggestions please post them! I need to keep myself busy for the next 2-4 weeks as I won't be talking to anyone but co-workers and family (forced to really) but I will post occasionally on this topic ONLY. I REALLY AM TRYING TO GET BETTER 110% SO THAT I NEVER RUIN ANY KIND OF RELATIONSHIP AGAIN. I am a positive, strong and loving person, I try really hard and I am determined that I can beat anything! ❀ I like: baking; muffins are my favorite tv shows; anime and british shows are the best movies; distopia/utopia/different worlds painting; any ideas?? (no fetish as it's going on my walls lol) drawing; yes ok request some fetish if you'd like BUT all characters need a pet or I swear to god... hair; I am a hairstylist who loves odd and creative hairdos and braids so any of you want a picture replica of some anime shit or scifi (especially braids or sick mohawks) I'll post a picture mini paint stories; i love making gifs and such with paint on my laptop, it can be fetish or not (i like funny things) also drawing; give me a picture and add what you'd like it to change (favorite show character who is sooo close to that toilet but didnt make it) or a picture of anything morphed like human and pet, or two people like babies or just something thatd look like two people (idfk, a threeheaded dumbledore) If you have anything you like to do, that is fun and not pricey, please let me know! I also love pc games; mmorpgs yo or anything I can download. Thank you guys, see you soon! xx ☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺☺
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