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  1. Hopefully I can do this justice. Tw: drug use (weed), hypnotism, cnc, human ashtray, degradation, dehumanising, slave play. We have been together many years and have talked about this stuff at length, please don't fuck with consent like this at home. . . Yesterday I made my boy (27m, blonde hair green eyes, toned twink, white, shaved) hydrate really well while he was at work, and go pee the second he felt able, not holding at all, just going every hour or so at the least. He was grateful and didn't realise at the time why I was doing it. That night When we got home I made him hydrate with Iced tea - a diuretic. He knew my fantasy - I had texted it to him previously (will add a screenshot if I can). We have a 24/7 total power exchange dynamic and he has verbal/aural triggers to drop him into sub space. When I knew he'd be starting to get desperate, I dropped him into sub space and told him he would be serving me for the rest of the night. In service space, he isn't allowed to speak, make eye contact, or ask for anything. He just does as he's told. I made him smoke half a joint, which is a LOT for him because he's new to smoking. I am not. Once he was sufficiently high, spaced out, and subby, we went out to the backyard. He sat on the floor by my feet while I smoked. I talked him into a hypnotised headspace - he's very susceptible to this. 'That's it puppy, lose yourself. Just get outside of your head, let your body take over. Can you feel all your muscles tingling? You feel so good all over, don't you? You love serving me' He was completely non verbal but I could see the signs of desperation. He was grabbing his cock through his jeans, whimpering occasionally; but so tranced out that he couldn't even begin to verbalise it even if he wanted to. I knew I wouldn't have to wait too long for him to fail. I started with fear play. I ashed my joint into his hand at first, then when he was even more out of it, onto his tongue. Never enough to burn him. I know he's scared of burns. I took his wrist and pressed my hot lighter against it - long enough to sting but again not long enough to cause damage. I admired his deep trust in me (he has non verbal safe words he could have easily used) - he was so very scared bur never pulled away. 'That's my good boy. Such a gold little service sub. You'll learn to enjoy the taste of ash, pet. I can see you grabbing that pretty cock of yours. Stop that, I told you to relax and lose yourself didn't I?' He let go diligently and was fidgeting a little. I knew it wouldmy take much more of the hypnotic pressure to push him to breaking point. 'Oh pet.. you haven't had a bathroom break. It's OK, better to wet yourself out here, before my friends arrive later, than to try and hold it and make a fool of me. What kind of man would I be to own a sub that can't even get through a party without pissing himself? If you cant learn to hold properly ill have to diaper you at work. Everyone would know. Stupid little piss pup can't control his aching bladder.' I could see him still holding back - wetting doesn't come naturally to him, he has so much shame around it. I needed to keep talking to him, to convince his brain to let him have relief. He had stopped whining now, a sure sign for him that the need was BAD. 'I've got you, pup. Listen to your body. Relax everything. Just let yourself go into the air, into nothing. You don't need to exist right now, no need to engage muscles. Just relax' He whimpered and I noticed a small wet spot - a leak. 'God pup, you look such a mess right now. You make my cock so hard. I'd love to force you to suck it right now. But then I couldn't use you as an ash tray, and I still need that. You're so useless. So brain-dead. Don't think. Just let go.' He gasped suddenly and I heard the familiar hissing - he was wetting. He began moaning, his head dropping back in pleasure as he emptied his very full bladder. 'That's it pup. I see you wetting yourself. You may as well let it all go now. Relax, pet.' He reached down and lightly stroked himself through his jeans while he continued to wet. There was so much. It had been a good 45 seconds. 'Oh pup, you really had to go for me didn't you? I can't believe you held all that. Are you done yet?' He whimpered and dropping his head forward against my knee, as a new hard rush of piss was released into his jeans. He clearly still needed to go. He peed for at least another minute, moaning and lightly touching himself, before he started panting and grabbing at me - finished. 'That's it pet. Empty now? Focus on how relaxed your muscles feel now. You need to train them to relax like this. Look at you, covered in piss for me.' I ashed my joint again and he began jerking off through his jeans. He has a 9inch uncut dick, so I could see how hard he was so quickly. I knew he was so lost in his pleasure that I could easily get him to cum. 'You need to empty those balls now too, don't you pet? That cock is so hard, now you need to cum. You've already made such a mess, look at the size of the puddle you're in. Why don't you make yourself cum for me?' It didn't take long - he was crying out, buring his head in my lap as he came, almost in tears, sobbing out his release. It took me ages to pull him enough out of sub space to get him to strip off and come shower. I got him dressed up warm (it's winter here) and settled in bed with him. Soon he started grinding against my leg - I knew he wanted to make me cum. I told him to fuck me - he wasn't allowed to cum, only edge. It didn't last long - watching him wet in that hypnotic state had got me so worked up, I came so quickly and so hard. Lots of cuddles and after-care last night and today 🥰 ask me any questions!!
  2. I've been holding all day, because I was simply too lazy to get up and go to the bathroom, and I constantly felt desperate throughout the night. By the time I got up to go finish cleaning the dishes I could barely hold it despite having a raging hard on from the fact that I could lose control at any moment! I kept dancing around and shifting my legs and leaking a little too much(there were drops on the floor and the entire front of my shorts were visibly wet), but I stopped to clean a knife(safety first) and it was barely a swcond in before I started leaking uncontrollably in spurts, and drops cascaded down as the wet warmth spread down from waistband to hem with orgasmic pleasure bursting from my nethers. I quickly put down the knife and rushed outside not wanting to waist this opportunity and started pacing around in the dew, still spurtinng occasionally as pee runs down my legs. I started uncontrollably leaking(more like pissing) and the warmth constantly bubbled up while running down my clit* and onto my balls with repeated bursts of pleasure, while I walked a bit slower now and reveled in the wet feeling of the dew and the cool breeze. I stood still and spread my legs and felt it run up and into my waistband again, before it suddenly stopped coming out and I sat down in the grass for a minute with my legs wide apart hoping to lose control again. After a few minutes of staring into nothing and savoring the cool feeling of slowly drying pee, I stood back up again and walk around a little more and leaked a bit, then went inside and refilled my water, taking a large swig before continuing on the dishes. (This is when it hits again) I suddenly become desperate and start leaking again, freely flowing out because I'm already drenched, and run down to the basement, stood still with my legs apart, and uncontrollably pissed myself for a few seconds, before going upstairs and leaking a bit while drinking more water, but this time I let it freely drip onto the floor as I walked to the bedroom and plopped down on the bed, still soaking wet, and began typing this out. Needless to say, I was very incontinent tonight. I'm still pretty full and desperate right now, my bladder must be huge, but I've also been chugging water all day and all that water in my blood being constantly filtered in to my kidneys probably worked as an automatic refiller lol. I'm literally about to lose it again, nice and relaxed in bed. This towel probably won't be able to catch enough of it if I piss in my sleep, but I'm too lazy rn to care. I might actually do it on purpose (*penis Whoops, wrong category
  3. About 3 years ago, When I was sophomore in college, I even trained to hold my urge for toilet because there were TOO many exams and assignments that even made me sleep 3 hrs per day. I had to do like that to avoid F. Monster Energy helped me a lot. Finally spring break had started and I returned to my home from dorm for days. On the way home I drunk and ate a lot that I got bit desperate already. Finally I arrived home and found that I was home alone. My families were out for trip for whole break. It meant I was completely free until the break ends. But, I got too sleepy when I entered home. The urge for pee raised worse and my bladder started to bulge, but I just ignored it and went to bed, thinking to go bathroom when I wake up. About 8 hours had passed, I woke up with a largely bulging bladder and a great urge to pee and a sharp stomach pain. I arrived home and fell asleep at 10 am so it was about 6 pm. Sunset had started and it was getting dark outside. At first, I coundn't even get out of bed. I noticed that if I take my two hands off from my pussy and stand up, the pee would be coming uncontrollably. I took a deep breath and barely came out of bed. I quickly headed to toilet but it didnt work at all. At that moment, I lost all my strength and barely managed to stop the pee leaking out. The urge got even worse and I felt like I was holding the Atlantic in my bladder. Holding my crotch with one hand, I called plumber with another hand. But he replied It would take about 2 hours to reach this house. It meant I would pee not in the toilet. At that moment, I was moaning for the urge and crossing my legs and holding my crotch with two hands. "Ooh..." I was holding a chair and couldnt walk. I had to look for solution. Then I reminded the backyard. My goodness. Our backyard was open without fence. Anyone could see our home directly and there was no blind spot at all. It meant I would show the neighbours my pussy and golden stream If I pee there. But there was no way to pee Inside my home. Sophomore Du280 was too shy and neat to make home dirty with pee. I couldn't even imagine peeing at home. I had to pee in backyard. A short stream came out and wet my undies. I was approaching my limit. So I came out of home, holding my crotch. Since it already got pretty dark, There was no person outside. But I couldn't be relieved. "Ooh, Ooh..." I moaned again. I was already wet my undies and a little amount pee came out. The pain and urge got fully bad and I moaned "Ah.. Ahh..." with even pressing my pussy. But I couldn't find the way. Then, I found there were tall flowers that makes some blind spots at the behind corner. I felt like be rescued. I slowly, slowly walked to that corner. The bladder bulged like pregnant. Finally I reached there. I took off my coat and hung it over flowers to completely cover it. It was like a small fortress. I took undies off and squatted down. And finally... The great golden stream had started. "Ah! Ahh... oh, Ah!" I moaned largely and even shouted. It felt orgasmic. The stream hit the grass and was absorbed. It sounded like a heavy downpour. I could feel the pee gets out of my body so clearly. I closed my eyes and fully enjoyed the relief. I was peeing myself at the backyard. I reached ecstasy againd and again during relief. Thanks to THAT DRILL in college, it took aboout 3 minutes to finish. After the relief had ended, I just stayed that posture for a while to feel the relief more. My bladder was empty and the world was peaceful. I took my coat and entered inside home, soon started masturbate. It after peeing felt like heaven. I masturbated for about an hour and fell asleep. I enjoyed and relaxed while rest break and returned to the college.
  4. So for people who enjoy peeing in places that you shouldn't pee into but do it nonetheless because you find it naughty & pleasuring (I'm one of those) what would you do if your Toilet wasn't working? (It only needs to be 1 Choice/Option [or 2 Choices if you want to be creative]) 1. Pee in the Sink 2. Peeing in the Shower/Bathtub 3. Pee in the Backyard 4. Pee in a Cup/Bottle My own answer to my own question would be choosing to pee in the Shower/Bathtub because it feels relaxing for the most part.
  5. Hey guys. Once again its been a while. Lately I've been visiting the site and just 'lurking' but not really partaking in any omo fun. That changed on a whim today. Lately ive been on a detox kick, trying different supplements, etc. This morning I drank a large mug of dandelion root tea, roughly 24oz worth and got the idea in my head to break in some of my newer pairs of jeans that I've never wet in. So that just what I did. I waited desperately til I had the house to myself, sat in a cast iron chair outside on our patio and released my bladders contents. I'd forgotten how the tea made it so much harder to hold just a small amount of pee. see pics below. I have another pair of jeans to 'break in' so I'm gonna do a longer hold. Seeing as I have lots of empty smart water bottles laying around, I'll be using those to measure intake. I may record a video of the wetting as well if anyone would like to see it. I'm not a particularly attractive or skinny girl...as you can probably tell... I just figure its about time to give back, ya know.
  6. A Sequel to The First Warm Day in April Lunch with a friend who knows nothing of my plans for later in the day: Caesar salad, tomato soup, talk about family and writing, a good balance of bragging and self-deprecation, the oil of most friendships. I order a large iced tea, drink it and a couple glasses ice water, two more than usual, in anticipation of fun times in the back yard on the first warm day of May. I am not going back to work after lunch. As we get ready to leave, I feel the itch and burn. I always go before even getting near a car but decide instead to drive home in a state of semi-desperation. Halfway home my jeans begin to dampen from spurts and leaks I cannot contain. They relieve the urge enough so I don’t wet the car seat, which I have no desire to do. The key, of course, struggles to find its way into the lock. Another spurt or two in my jeans. Almost before the door’s shut, I shed all but panties and T before fast walking through the kitchen, out the back door, and into what is a large yard for a small old house, a yard surrounded by a laurel hedge tall enough to keep anyone but a gentle giant from looking in, planted many years ago for privacy but without knowing it would be for this. The other houses at the back and sides are only a few feet away. There are second story windows and gaps in the hedge, so I’ve had to search for a spot for my Adirondack that will not offend anyone’s line of sight. As soon as I sit the t-shirt comes off. All that is left are panties and pale winter skin, as if some young vampire (perhaps one who wets as she bites) has had her way with me. A stream of piss bubbles up through the nylon like a little fountain before re-entering the briefs and running down my leg to the seat of the chair then the grass. I slip my hand between crotch and my briefs to enjoy the dampness of skin and hair, and that’s enough for now. After the piss cools, I pull off my Hanes to kneel naked in the grass, bare ass to the sun, to take these photos, front first, then back – I have a cigarette, down a lemon La Croix and an instant coffee, eat a piece or two of chocolate, put on sunscreen, lean back, put my feet up, enjoy the warmth of Pacific Northwest sun on bleached skin that will burn before it tans. I piss myself three more times in the next hour or so, the second time, naked, legs crossed and to my surprise a little yellow lake forms in the V beneath my crotch. I slowly part my legs and the little lake drains. I wipe the piss from my thighs, where it's merged with sunscreen to make a creamy lotion. Fifteen minutes later, I soak the panties and the chair again. The photo below only captures the damp remains, but I still like it. Next time, I will try our old white wooden Adirondack instead. I take a quick dip in our old two-person hot tub to rinse off the lotion and piss. I shower and pull on soft black running shorts, a t-shirt and nothing else. In an hour I’ll get dressed for dinner with my partner/spouse/friend, G., who says of my new interests – “We’re evolving, I guess.” But G. has no idea quite how far I’ve evolved and would be more than a little dismayed at the way I’ve spent my afternoon, and this, I think, is OK, for the gap between knowing and secrecy is central to who we are. To be fully known, to ourselves or others, is a kind of death, while to be partly known, and not despised, to be seen and not cast out, is perhaps what makes a fierce and gentle fetish an act of erotic grace. (This last is philosophically pretentious I know, but perversion cums in many different forms.) I return, on an impulse, to the still damp chair and wet my dark dry shorts. I leave them and the Hanes in the sun to dry, then pull back on the jeans I wet on the ride home. They are almost dry now, but if I look closely I can see the slightest outline of a soft stain where yellow and blue merged. Beneath my Levis, thin black lace. That night, as I sit with G. at a performance, a slight musty smell -- some combination of sun and grass and pee -- rises from my crotch. Can anyone notice it? Like the chair in the back yard, I want to be on the edge of sight and smell, or let’s admit it, a bit over that edge, as long as I don’t offend. I’ll wear these jeans the next day until on a walk after dinner I try to create an inconspicuous patch of wetness between my legs. Failing that, a half-block from home, no one in sight, I let loose. Drenched from crotch to knees, I am almost there, but then a Camry appears out of nowhere and before I can cross the street to the porch it oh so politely stops to let me go. Once I do it does not drive on, but parks in front of my house. I cannot see the driver, but I am pretty sure it’s the matronly mother of the cute young wife who lives next door with her cute young husband. I use my sweater to partially hide the unmistakable stains, but not so much that as I enter the house I can wonder how much my young neighbor’s mother saw of my humiliation, if she, perhaps, had noted the unfortunate accident I’d had on my walk, looking, then looking away, then looking again at me and my jeans, more curious than she wants to admit.
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