Hey everyone. I just wanted to say something real quick because I think its important to speak from the heart when bad things happen to you, and to use a platform for such things if you have one, which as weird as "pee" is, it is my platform.
I called a suicide hotline today. And if you ever even have the passing thought that you might need to, let me be the first to tell you that you should. They really are that good. Its not just hot air. If you just talk with them, they aren't going to send the 5-0 to your home.
I struggle with a lot of things. Many of you know I am on the spectrum. I also have anxiety and panic disorders. It makes me so high strung all the time that I am very easy to upset. I know a lot of you know this. I know a lot of you even judge me for it, given how I can come off. But I digress, beneath the surface of it, whatever judgement you make on it, there's a human being under it. A human being who sometimes really, really needs help. A human being who today, had an emotional episode that became a panic attack, who worried what the impulsiveness of such a state might lead to. And I needed help.
And that's okay. Needing help is okay. Googling that number and calling it, is okay. They know what they're doing, know exactly what to ask and how to speak to make sure you're okay and help you reach the level of calm you need. I know this because they just did it for me. And I am so, so, so fucking grateful for that.
Please, never hesitate. These services are here for a reason. And they help. If knowing it could work for a loudmouth ditz like me surprises you, I hope you keep it in mind, I hope you consider it extra and weigh the thought just that extra little bit. I hope you call it when you need it.
Help is just a phone call away. It really, really is.
This isn't meant to be anything dramatic, nor am I going anywhere. I just...after having that experience, it almost feels like a duty to convey it.
You're all my family, and I love you very much. Thank you for putting up with me, as I put up with you ♥
I took the steps today to be healthy and safe. I hope you're healthy and safe too.
Reminder that spamming our support box with slurs, derogatory statements, and threatening staff like myself with violence via pipebomb and neurotic and insane sounding "civil wars" is a fast track to being reported to your mobile carriers, internet service providers, and local authorities.
We were actually advised to call 911 on this one. Little do they know that somehow manages to be a typical day for us, and we get literal looneybins throwing baby tantrums over warnings for rule-breaking every day.
Reminder that people on the internet is full of crazy people, friends. Stay safe out there.
Today's a lazy day for me... I've been in bed watching movies all day but I needed to go to the bathroom so this is the only thing I got up for. Time to change and take a nap
This is a photo from about 3 weeks ago and decided I could share here. You couldn't see the wetness that well, but I remember having to pee so bad that when I finally got to the bathroom I was basically already wetting myself so I just sat on the toilet and went through my pants.
