Biku

Sometimes you spend a night being productive
Other nights you watch Firefly for 7 hours in the omo discord
.....Fuck productivity

Happy New Year Everyone.
And Happy Birthday to @Rainyday's beloved character, Lillica Plumb!

Relive the quest of said birthday girl here.
 

Happy New Year from Omorashi.Org!!!!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

Holy fuck, I can access my youtube again. The one where I did those videos.
Yeah, i used to do videos. I might do some again, if people still crave it. But what...
 

Merry Christmas!!

It's 6 minutes past midnight here sooooo
M E R R Y    C H R I S T M A S !

Hey everyone. I just wanted to say something real quick because I think its important to speak from the heart when bad things happen to you, and to use a platform for such things if you have one, which as weird as "pee" is, it is my platform.
I called a suicide hotline today. And if you ever even have the passing thought that you might need to, let me be the first to tell you that you should. They really are that good. Its not just hot air. If you just talk with them, they aren't going to send the 5-0 to your home.
I struggle with a lot of things. Many of you know I am on the spectrum. I also have anxiety and panic disorders. It makes me so high strung all the time that I am very easy to upset. I know a lot of you know this. I know a lot of you even judge me for it, given how I can come off. But I digress, beneath the surface of it, whatever judgement you make on it, there's a human being under it. A human being who sometimes really, really needs help. A human being who today, had an emotional episode that became a panic attack, who worried what the impulsiveness of such a state might lead to. And I needed help.
 
And that's okay. Needing help is okay. Googling that number and calling it, is okay. They know what they're doing, know exactly what to ask and how to speak to make sure you're okay and help you reach the level of calm you need. I know this because they just did it for me. And I am so, so, so fucking grateful for that.
Please, never hesitate. These services are here for a reason. And they help. If knowing it could work for a loudmouth ditz like me surprises you, I hope you keep it in mind, I hope you consider it extra and weigh the thought just that extra little bit. I hope you call it when you need it.
Help is just a phone call away. It really, really is.
 
This isn't meant to be anything dramatic, nor am I going anywhere. I just...after having that experience, it almost feels like a duty to convey it.
 
You're all my family, and I love you very much. Thank you for putting up with me, as I put up with you ♥
I took the steps today to be healthy and safe. I hope you're healthy and safe too.

Ever get really weird ideas that make you wanna learn stuff you'd never considered?
Related, I just did a bunch of math and learned that at my highest recorded capacity, I am 3.4% pee.

I have said it many times, but having to use crutches/a walker to get to a toilet and having to find a way to then set them aside and THEN get clothes down while maintaining balance, is worse latchkey than actual latchkey involving latches and keys. Being forced to take so many slow and methodical steps just to clear my overly medicated bladder at an hour like this is....knock-knee inducing, to say the least. I repeat, to say the least.

It's the 29th of November. You know what means.
I'M 26 TODAY!

Wake up, have to piss, but I'm also being cuddled around the waist.
Classic.

I can't believe I have to remind of this, but please, please do not write posts fetishizing children. Our policies on this are incredibly firm and have been for quite awhile, and I should not have to clear out multiple posts and threads about elementary school childrens "smelly" wet clothes. There is a fine line to be had there and depending on how egregious the offense, can very possibly be an outright ban.
Please help me keep this forum clean and safe for everyone and report things that fly under my radar, okay? Its a big place, and you never know whats being posted where any given second.

Wake up, go pee, come back, go back to sleep.
I said go back to sleep.
Shit.

Got my bandages off. The scars are absolutely gnarly but sooooo sick ♥

Work on Part 2 officially begins, and to celebrate that fact, I paid Biku money for meme art.
 

Todays morning-full-bladder-and-crutches trip....Latchkey is a bitch when you can't walk and have to put crutches aside and get your clothes down while on one foot. This is all a major super drawn out latchkey urge and yet I have no choice but to take it slow and methodical even if brain wants to tremble and monke panic to get everything down, which could result in me hurting myself.
I'm drawing attention to the fact that the latchkey was super drawn out and intense trying to get my pajamas down with one fuckin arm and one fuckin leg, while standing, because by the time I was on the toilet there was pee on the floor and I had to change underwear T__T Not the pj pants though. It wasn't that bad. The bigger leak happened between me actually getting the clothes all the way down, and my gingerly lowering myself slowly onto the toilet.
Buh. Its so weird how latchkey can be triggered by such weird things that don't even involve latches or keys; sometimes its just the knowledge that you're literally at the toilet and are going to be spending like a whole 30 seconds or more sorting yourself in front of it just to use it. Its mind-melting.

Starting my day with struggling with how to get on the toilet to release a full bladder is becoming a literal staple of my day. And then like 2-3 times across the day because in the interest of comfort I end up holding it far longer than usual just because trying to get out of bed/my chair is miserable.
I should be making some sort of "Crippled Pee Diary" or something, if I'm going to be squirming in front of my bathroom trying to go through a checklist this often.

Being up this early is becoming routine and I would like a doctor or scientist to tell me why my morning pee clock has shifted to be so early just from becoming bedridden because I would like to get a full 8 hours in or something before getting woken up. Getting back to sleep is not easy

I know I've already complained about these bouts where I'm woken up by needing to pee so frustratingly early in the morning, but god is it so much worse being fundamentally crippled and having to crutch my way to the bathroom. Even just the way crutches are used sends jolts straight to the damn bladder and it takes me so damn long since I'm in so much pain just from the act of getting up.
One of these days its going to cause an incident or something and I'm going to end up being very cross about it from raw frustration rather than going "haha pee"

Can't believe I'm being roasted like this in my own damn house smdh

How was everyones halloween? Did you do anything special, or watch anything spooky?

Hi everyone! I had a really big surgical procedure on Wednesday and I'll be in recovery for awhile. I'm still here but post approvals and responses to reports might be a bit slower, so please be patient with me!!!
And please send me your energy. I'm in a lot of pain, but I'm really looking forward to being back on my feet and being better than ever!!!!

Remember when I mentioned the other day that pee woke me up about 4 minutes ago on said day?
YEAH. HI AGAIN.
WHY DO I KEEP NEEDING TO PISS AT SUCH A SPECIFIC TIME OF NIGHT

I'm trying to get back into the swing of regularly posting. Being a full-time student with a full-time job ensures I gotta make space for my work behind the curtain here, and it almost makes it too easy to stay behind it. Sometimes I outright forget posting is a thing I can do LMAO