Your experience is unfortunate, but hardly ABUniverse's fault. Tena is not an ABDL brand, for starters. They make protective incontinence products for adults. They're not even one of the top end adult diapers, really. They are available OTC pretty much everywhere (ie MUCH cheaper than you got them from ABUniverse). The only brand that I can think of offhand (of the ones available in my area) that's lower end is Depends - and even that's a toss-up. Read some reviews and do your homework and you'll find a brand that works for you. They're all going to be expensive, though. This isn't a cheap fetish. Good luck.