koyukoyu

Good question. I don't even know when and how did it start. It's as complicated as what determines if a person is straight or gay. Maybe it's mainly genetic? For me, I remember being excited when I saw a cartoon character needing to pee since kindergarten (although nothing sexual). I was also very excited when I saw a female friend at kindergarten wetting herself.

For me, there is a clear cut between leaking and wetting. - Leaking is when I lose control for about half a second, shooting a spurt of pee out. A small leak may not be visible or just barely visible. A bigger leak or multiple leaks combined may be quite visible, but is still just leaking. (For OP, that's also counted as leaking for me.) - Wetting is when I feel a strong spasm, then my muscle will go numb, pushing pee out at full force for about 7-15 seconds until I'm half-empty (or sometimes until completely empty). The first sign of near-wetting is bladder contraction that comes in increasingly stronger waves (or the so-called "wave of pee"). For me, each wave lasts for 1-2 minutes and is 10-15 minutes apart. And I can tell you that it's VERY psychological (the waves come exactly when I arrive at my subway station, enter my room, or see a toilet). A strong wave may cause leaking. But the REAL sign for wetting is spasm. If I start feeling a spasm, this wave is probably the last one, which means I have only 15-30 seconds left. Or sometimes even if I can survive this wave, the next wave will do it for sure.

When doing a hold, there are mainly two different sensations. 1. The feeling of fullness and pain in the bladder, which makes you want to voluntarily release the pee. 2. The feeling of muscle contraction, or the so-called "wave of pee hitting". It tries to push the pee out, and you have to clench your muscle, cross your legs, or push your hand into your crotch to prevent it from coming out. Eventually, if #2 is too strong, you'll fell a spasm and your muscle will go numb, succumbing to #2. That's when you fully wet yourself. ------------ For me, my pleasure mainly comes from #2 and the act of fighting against it. While #1 is also enjoyable at some level, when it's too much, it's just pain and not enjoyable anymore. As I previously mentioned a few times, when I first started doing this, the problem was that I felt only #1 but not #2. I later found a solution; the key is to exhaust my muscle by doing multiple holds in a day. - In the 1st hold of the day, I feel only #1 but not #2. So I'll just do it for the sake of weakening my bladder, and to measure the volume of my pee. - In the 2nd hold of the day, I feel more #2 and usually end up involuntarily wetting myself. - Sometimes I do the 3rd hold of the day. This is the most pleasurable hold as I can start feeling #2 even when I'm half-full. I have to sit on my heel when I'm in public to fight it. But last week, I went even beyond that for the first time. After a full day of 3 holdings, my bladder was still exhausted the day after, so I thought "Why not try it for another day?" So I did 2 more holdings the day after. And I can tell you that the last hold was the MOST PLEASURABLE hold I've ever done. In total, there were like 5-6 increasingly stronger waves of pee, each one lasting 1-2 minutes and was about 10 minutes apart. I had to cross my legs and push my hands into my crotch in public. In the later waves, I leaked so much that the pee is running down my legs and hit the floor (which never happened before!). I even began to worry I might wet myself in public. But after several leaks, I successfully returned to my home and fully wet myself not long after that.

I've done wetting in public a few times, but it's more like semi-public (public place but no one came by). The perfect place is in a park. There's always a secluded corner where no one comes by. Plus, the mess on the floor won't be a problem to other people.

Most of my worst (or best?) experiences came from the time I dated a girl with a very big bladder. Usually I had to go to the toilet like 2-3 times while she went once. (No, I don't have a very small bladder -- I consider myself average -- she’s just too amazing.) And I wasn't very shy to say that I needed to pee while we were on a date. It’s just that I didn't want to disturb her too often by going out of our way just to find a toilet for me. So, usually I just held it until it's convenient to go, or until she went. That's a very common thing during our date. Several times, I ended up leaking a single drop into my panties (which I don't really count as a "leak" -- in my definition, a "leak" has to be losing control and spurting for like half a second, enough to create a wet patch in the panties, not just a single drop seeping.) But there were these two times that might be counted as my "worst" experiences, depending on which measure: If counting for the most desperate one, there was a time when I went to a museum with her. I drank a lot of water before that and by the time we were walking through the musuem, I got desperate. I said to her that I needed to pee, but I didn't want to interrupt our route to go find a toilet, so I just walked along with her and hoped that there would be a toilet on the way. Unfortunately, there wasn't one, so I had to wait until we completed visiting the whole musuem, then excused myself to a toilet near the exit. That was the only time I leaked several drops into my panties, probably enough to be truly counted as a "leak". If counting for the seriousness of the situation that I might wet myself, there was a time when we were in a long queue to buy something. Unlike other times when I could just excuse myself to the toilet if it got too bad, that time I actually couldn't leave. We joined the queue in the morning. As I thought the queue would be at most 2 hours long, I ate and drank a lot while we were in the queue. After 2 hours passed, it turned out to be much longer than that, and I began to need to pee. We weren't allowed to leave the queue, so I started to worry what would happen if I couln't hold it. Somehow, I did manage to last though that (the total queue time was eventually about 5-6 hours), with only a single drop seeping.

Mine was in middle school. That was probably the only time I've seen a girl desperate to the point of bending herself forward. And it wasn't just one, but two!! We were on a school trip and took the bus from school in the morning. I remember that the bus ride wasn't even that long, maybe just about an hour. But when we reached the destination, got off the bus, and waited for all students to gather before entering the site, I saw two girls (one of them was very attractive) desperate to pee to the point that they couldn't stand still; they had to constantly bend forward and touch their lower legs. Unfortunately, after a while, a teacher escorted some students, including both of them, to the toilet, so the scene for me ended. It's been more than ten years now, and I still have never seen a better scene than this one.

This is my technique to deal with the same problem I posted ten years ago. I'm still using this technique until this day.

Mind was about 20-21 hours, from the night to the next evening. But that was when I was 11. For recent hold, the longest was about 18 hours (also from the night to the next evening).

If I have to pick one, I'd pick Hen Zemi episode 13. The desperation scene is vivid and very realistic.

Only once, when I was 18. It was mainly due to stress (I was dreaming about the issue that stressed me out). That's the only time I wet the bed after an age of 12.

Have you been observing what phrase people say when they need to pee? In my native language (not English), there are two main ways to say. The first one is equivalent to "I need to pee", and the second one is equivalent to "I want to go to the toilet". (There are also other ways to say it, like a cute form "I need a pee-pee" or a vulgar form "I need to piss", but only few people around me use these.) From what I've been observing people around me, more outgoing people tend to say #1, while more shy people tend to say #2, and there are approximately 50% of each type equally. (Some people do say both, depending on which group of friends they're with.) Of course, hearing #1 from a girl is more a turn-on than #2, but the BIGGEST turn-on is when a girl who typically says #2 is saying #1. I get very excited even when hearing the word "pee" from her. By the way, I myself is a shy one. I used to say only #2 until years ago when I dated a girl who says #1. Since then, I started to say #1 sometimes, but only when I'm with close (female) friends or a girl I'm interested in.

I know a female friend who has the biggest bladder I've ever seen. She almost never goes to the toilet during the time we meet (usually all day, around 6-7 hours, plus she has to take an hour-long bus from and to her place), even though the toilet is easily accessible. During that period, all other friends, including me, have been to the toilet at least twice, or sometimes even thrice. I'm super impressed with her bladder. And no, she's not a shy one who doesn't want to admit she needs to pee; she's an outgoing girl who explicitly says "I need to pee" when she needs it. So whenever I hear that word from her (which is quite rare), I get very excited. For the smallest bladder, I know many friends who go to toilet very often (mostly male though), so I can't pick a distinguished one in particular.

The best thing would be seeing body languages (bending forward, crossing legs, etc.) when someone needs to pee. But in real life I've rarely seen a girl desperate to the point that it is shown on body languages. So, most often the things are just verbal languages, saying that she needs to pee, especially if she repeatedly says it after she still can't go to the toilet for a while.

YES, I automatically keep track for the girls that I'm (even slightly) interested in. While it's a turn-on when she says she needs to pee and/or excuses herself to the toilet, I'm more fascinated by girls with a strong bladder who rarely need to pee. So, most of the time I secretly hope that she doesn't go to the toilet (and will be a little disappointed if she does). That is for normal everyday situations where it's convenient to go to toilet all the time, though; if it's a situation where toilet can't be found soon, i secretly hope to see some desperation.

For me, I'm entirely into omorashi; my sexual feeling comes entirely from seeing women (and to a lesser extent, men) holding pee and wetting, and/or doing so myself. I don't watch "normal porn", as I don't have a sexual feeling to an idea of having sex. I myself never had sex, and I don't even know if I'm able to do so. On a side note, I do have romantic feeling for women (I've had girlfirends before, although it didn't last long). I also like seeing "sexy pictures" of women (e.g. wearing underwears, swimsuits), although I don't really enjoy completely nude pictures. So, I wonder how much into this fetish are you? - Entirely into omorashi, like me - Mainly omorashi, but also enjoy watching normal porn, having a sex life, etc. - Mainly normal sex life, just having omorashi as an additional kink