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  1. Hey Y'all! 

    So...I took The Plunge and put Grindr and Scruff on my phone(I'm Bi As Fuck btw). I've been thinking about this for a while, and I'm ready to start looking for my First Boyfriend! 😍

    I've had Grindr for about a week now and the response has been nothing short of amazing! I've met so many new wonderful people and I'm making lots of new friends. A few Creeps, but I was totally expecting that. I set up my Scruff Profile this afternoon but if I'm being honest, the UI is a little overwhelming. I'm just gonna have to sit down tomorrow and fiddle with it until I figure it out. 

    I'm VERY new to all of this, but I'm having fun nonetheless. The confidence in my body alone has risen by leaps and bounds! In my long history of Mental Illness, this is the first time I've felt this good about myself in YEARS! I feel like I could FINALLY be me!

    I Came Out to my best friend the other night. We live in the DEEP 'Hood in Austin, and he's a former Gang Member. We've been talking about getting our own place with increasing seriousness, and in order for things to not be awkward when I inevitably started bringing Guys over I had to tell him. He was TOTALLY cool with it! He said he'd never judge me for something like that. I cried off and on for the rest of the night. My first ever Happy Tears.

    So my reason for writing this is to ask any Grindr/Scruff Vets out there for any advice they may have, no matter how obvious it may seem. I know what I'm attracted to and I know what I'm about as far as Kinks go. But chatting up Dudes seems to be something I suck at for some odd reason. I've had several ok chats and a handful of Prospects, but nothing Solid yet.

    I'm so glad I did this. I just wish I had all My Shit figured out earlier. I got a lot of lost time to make up for!

    Thanks Y'all!

    💜

  2. So here's how I spent yesterday:

    For background, I've fallen into the Lofi Hip-Hop Rabbit Hole HARD. I found this song on a Pueblo Vista poodcast the other night and I just HAD to do somethin' with it; I couldn't help it.

    Conformidad-Smod

    So there's the song, here come the lyrics I wrote yesterday. The guitar pickin' is your metronome and don't let the dice stop rollin' on the flow. Think Geto Boys for rap style and you should be able to feel it. Lyrics start to upbeat before the drums kick in at 0:29.

    I call this "Stardust"

     

    If the pen is mightier than the sword and knowledge is power,

    Then I'ma fuckin' Howitzer!

    Dark Energy surroundin' us, bindin' us together. Yeah, we know it's Out There.

    And there's a fuckin' reason that we all we all come from Stardust!

    We see the world thru the lens of individuality when we know there's trillions of others spread throughout the Galaxy.

    Movin' thru the stars faster than a Gamma Ray but we're still hung up on some bullshit like race?

    There's others Out There but we'll never fuckin' see 'em. We're too busy peepin' the neighbors wonderin' how we're gonna beat 'em.

    We ain't leavin' this Rock as long as we're divided, not 'til all this Tribalism Bullshit's subsided.

    Open up my mind, get high, an' surf the Cosmos. Ev'ry fuckin' day the Smoke's fillin' up my torso.

    I walk the Streets with a Stutter-Step in my feet. They're bein' driven by a Lofi Hip-Hop Beat!

    Chakras open, tryin' to get that Akashic Record, benefit Humanity, and bring us all togetgher.

    It's a chill job, but someone's gotta do it.

    Might as well be me. Let's fuckin' do this!

    Starin' in the Abyss, seein' if It'll look back. Take a fuckin' swan dive. I ain't leavin' no return address. Gonna take my exit from this world for a while, got some information that needs to be compiled.

    They say "Genius And Madness Are Two Sides Of The Same Coin," but it's a razor's edge to balance between sadness and joy. I find that fuckin' valley and ride as long as I can. Ev'ry single second bein' pulled down by The Man!

    Why do I have to be a Useless Cog in a Huge Machine? Why can't I just do Me? What the fuck does this all mean!?

    We weren't put on this Earth to be Wage Slaves, countin' down the months 'til the next fuckin' Vacay.

    I'm the Wrench thrown in The Works by a monkey. Tear it all down, just you try and fuckin' stop me.

    We'll find a solution together, I promise.

    There's somethin' better Out There,

    We jus gotta fuckin' find It...

    ❤️

  3. 1 hour ago, Skid2010 said:

    Please definitely let us know how this went!

    I promise I'll write this up tmrw. I spent most of my day High As Fuck nursing a hangover, 'cause my dumbass hasn't gone out drinkin' in like, 5 years; plus I spent the majority of the Preparation just tryin' not to have a panic attack, so I barely ate anythin' before I left. On top of all that I did so much walkin' my are just fuckin' killin' me. In between BIunts(plural) I just laid in bed and listened to lofi hip-hop while rehydratin'.

    To Short The Long Of It:

    Altho no sexaul contact of any kind was had last night(besides a fingertip over my knuckles and a wink from the cute Zombie Bartender as he commented on my hair) I had a great night! I met so many wonderful people and I got to come out of my shell and be extroverted again!

    I was smokin' myself to sleep and about to logout for the night when I saw this. However...To tide you over(and totally NOT a cop-out 😛), one of the last good long stories I posted was a My First Bi Experience. It's the last post on my Funny Drug Stories Thread in the Off-Topic Forum. Enjoy!

    ❤️

  4. Preparation:

    Subject [solous.persona] will maintain a functional level of Stoned and will always have earbuds in. Subject will constantly listen to "Smoke Chill | lo-fi hip-hop" livestream on Youtube to quell any social anxiety that will arise throughout the day. Subject will trim beard, shower, style hair, brush teeth, and generally make a serious attempt to look like a Human again. All the while reminding himself that, once upon a time, he was an extrovert; it's still there, he can do this.

    Execution:

    At approx. 15:30 CST Subject will board a CapMetro Bus to downtown Austin, TX and find a location to "Hang Out" until 18:00 CST. Subject will employ Mindfulness Meditation coupled with breathing exercises as a means to deal with any overwhelming anxiety. At 18:00 CST Subject will make his way to Cheer Up Charlies, a local gay bar. Subject will then attempt to complete the following.

    Primary Objectives:

    -Subject will "Have Fun"

    -When asked about his "Costume," Subject will, in a charming and friendly manner, answer he is "Just A Broke Dude" for Halloween.

    -Subject will make attempts to engage with people he doesn't know in conversation.

    Secondary Objective:

    Subject will keep an eye out for anyone he may find attractive. Subject will, if presented with the opportunity, fufill every gay omo fantasy he has ever had with said attrative person.

    Tertiary Objective:

    Subject will consume any Cannabis and/or Psychedelics offered to him and just "Let The Night Happen."

    Outcome:

    Status Ongoing. Will update when able. Wish me luck and Happy Halloween Y'all!

  5. Star Wars a we knew it growin' up is dead to me. Thank and Fuck You Disney. I don't even acknowledge Disney Star Wars and I've made it my Life Mission to make sure Disney gets $0.00 of my money.

    The Expanse...I could talk about The Expanse all day! I've read thru whole series 3 times. I haven't read the newest one yet, but it's on The List. Of the show I've only seen up to the 1st episode of Season 4. I was a little disappointed as it took a season and a half to do the first book, but only 4 episodes to do the third book, which is my favorite one.

    Have y'all watched any Scott Manly? He's a youtube "Armchair Physicist" and has a lot of videos about the science of The Expanse, Space Exploration in general, and he does a lot of cool stuff in Kerbal Space Program(like buildin' and flyin' a Viper mk II from Battlestar Galactica).

  6. 7 hours ago, Janiseguchi said:

    I have way too many favorites for songs. From video games to movies and even anime. Some theme songs for wrestlers as well. And of course a lot of Jpop, Jrock and Japanese metal. Mainly Dir En Gray for metal.

     

    Currently its Judas by Fozzy

    Miseria Canteria by AFI

    Defy you by the Offspring

    Unshaken from the RDR2 soundtrack

     

    lol As soon as a read Jmetal I knew Dir En Gray was gonna follow! 😄

  7. 16 minutes ago, DerekOmoso said:

    I found two songs from one of my friends that I REALLY enjoyed.

    It's Time. By Imagine Dragons

    It Don't Exist. By Bayside.

     

    I enjoy them both a lot!

    I'll have to check out the 2nd one.

    I'm honestly tired of Imagine Dragons(no offense meant). Radio did what Radio does best and just played them ad nauseam.

    However. There is one song I could listen to over and over again...

    Pentatonix, Lindsey Stirling-Radioactive 

  8. So I've gotten into this Bhangra Kick after a trip to the Corner Store for some Smokes. Dude workin' the Night Shift is from Nepal and he was just Jammin' that night! I heard a Bhangra-esque cover of Snow's Informer. In true 90's Kid form I immediately recognized the lyrics. I surprised myself with how much of that song I remembered after all these years! 😃

    So when I got back I started combin' google and youtube to try and find this song as Nepali Clerk didn't have that much info on it; it was just a mix his buddy gave him. I haven't started in on soundcloud or bandcamp yet, but I figured I'd at least ask the only Online Community I'm a part of if they knew anything about it first.

    So the closest thing I could find was a mix by DJ FRENZY called NARAM JAYA(feat. Chamkila, Amarjyot, & Snow). It's a mix of two songs to a great beat, the 2nd of which bein' Snow's version he did with Daddy Yankee called Con Calma(which I learned about durin' my Research). Wasn't a fan of Con Calma tho. All Mexican Pop Music sounds like a continuation of the same song, as the songs all have the EXACT same beat! It gets maddenin' to listen to after about 15mins. But with that Bhangra tho...

    So I'll post a link to the video at the end, but I Was Wonderin'...

    Does anyone know the name of the First Song?

    Does anyone know what they are sayin'? Is the song in Hindi, Nepali, Urdu?

    Is there on the Internet somewhere just a straight-up Bhangra-style cover of Informer? I'm still not 100% convinced this is the same song I heard.

    Any other info on the Fist Song would be greatly appreciated. Thank Y'all So Much!

    So Informer(Con Calma) doesn't start in the song 'til around 2:20. But I personally think the last 20secs are the best part of the whole thing; I'll settle for just a loop of that last 20secs.

     NARAM JAYA

  9. I didn't get to watch. I got into a really bad argument with the Asshole Roommate that almost came to blows after he called me a faggot. Well. This Faggot had to have Other Roommate hold me back, otherwise Asshole Roommate would've ended up with a fuckin' speech impedement.

    So yeah. I had to leave the apt to cool off. Called mgmnt and it's bein' handled. That's the one thing you DON'T call someone in Austin.

    I tried to find a free livestream to follow on my phone, but they were all either literally bootleg footage of someone's tv and the resolution was just awful, or it was live commentary in Spanish, and altho I speak Spanish, I could never follow sports commentary as it's too rapid-fire and I can't translate it in my head fast enough.

    I saw Sainz was out early, but I don't know what happened. I don't even know who won.

  10. I've only been to the first US Grand Prix after they BARELY finished gettin' COTA built. It was AMAZING!

    It was the last year they were runnin' the V-8s, and Hamilton's last season at McLaren. Hamilton'd been chasin' Vettel all race, passed him on the 2nd to last lap, and won it all! Andretti did the podium interviews, then after that one of my brothers, our friend, and I went to the Piano Guys show on the other side of the Track.

    The engines were so loud they shook the ground with EVERY downshift! Each change of gears I could FEEL in my core. The best part of the weekend was when we first pulled up to the Track on Friday in the middle of Pactice 2. When we got out of the van, we could smell the fuel burnin', hear the engines whinin', and feel the excitement in the air. I looked over at one of my brothers and quoted Clarkson: "I think the Grand Prix is in town, gents..." And without missin' a beat he qouted Hammond right back to me, "The wha'?"

    It's still my favorite Family Trip we did after me and all my siblings turned 21 and could drink(I mean, that didn't stop us before, but still).

    Also. Grand Prix Pro-Tip:

    Be able to carry a conversation in one of the Romance Languages(French, Italian, Portugese, or Spanish. Romanian's technically a Romance Language as well, but the most useless one of all 5 for this situation). That way, when you ask a stranger if they've seen a Beer Guy around, you have an 80% better chance of understandin' said stranger when they answer you.

  11. Things are gettin' "Quite 'Race-y'"(as "Sir" David Hobbs likes to say) down in Austin tonight. Everytime I go outside to smoke all I hear is the distinctive rumblings of V-8 Engines echoin' all around me. I love it!

    If I had the means when I was younger I definitely would've be an Underground Street Racer. Fits perfectly with my inability to make "Good Decisions" 😄

  12. There's a good chance I'll have the place to mysefl this weekend. If that's the case, I'ma try and do a Grand Prix Hold on Sunday, startin' after my Mornin' Piss, and seein' how long I can go after they wrap things up at COTA.

    But Saturday...

    Any ideas? Please keep in mind I live in a somewhat dangerous area of Austin; I will be VERY limited as to what I can and cannot do outside. That bein' said I'm open to any suggestions on how to spend my Saturday. I'm open to Drug Use(within reason and budget) and possibly Drinkin'; it's been a while since I got Good An' Proper Drunk.

  13. 25 minutes ago, Redd said:

    Well, as a drinker (of alcohol), I usually wash out like a bottle of shampoo or something not alcohol related, and put something I want in my room, in there.  Drinks are expensive on the cruise and they will get their share.  At least with me.  But I buy the unlimited soda card and take a couple of sodas back to my cabin at night and continue drinking.  Use the diapers at night for sure, then for exhibitionism, take an evening stroll up on deck while wearing/wetting.  

    Of course, there is that video of the girl sunbathing during the day and just letting loose through her swimsuit where they put out the cones around her.  Repeating that would send the community here into flips, lol.  

    Regardless, have fun and enjoy.  

    I haven't seen a Drinkin' Hack like that since my 20s. Well done!

  14. Chachi Sanchez iRacing Last To First "Formula Vee" VR

    My younger brother likes to do VR Racing durin' F1 Season. There was a period of about 2 weeks back in 2011 when he had the 8th Worldwide Fastest Time at Shanghai on F1 2010 for the PC. He uses a Logitech G27 Racing Wheel and I believe he has the Valve Index for a Headset by now but I could be wrong.

    Anyways. For those interested. I figured I'd try to give him a Helpin' Hand with his numbers while keepin' it relevant. Downvote all you want, I'm just tryin' to be a Good Brother.

    [He does NOT know I'm a Member of this Site and I'd like to please keep it that way.]

  15. 12 hours ago, Avery Fox said:

    So il keep it short my favorite constructor is difficult but id say secretly got to be the prancing horse they have history and legends 

     

    Greatest drivers of the current era are verstappen Alonso and Hamilton and goatifi 

    Greatest all time goatifi and senna (for now)

    Favorite track has to be Imola with it curves and narrow roads plus aqua minarli is one of the best corned 

    All time favourite track suzuka suzaka is everything 

    Dont have a favourite car 

    As to verstappen hate i fomt have any i am a great fan of him and how he races and he receives and undue amount of hate due to the british media villifying him  so thats about it on that front 

    F1 going green however is a very exciting prospect and i am higly interested in especially the renewable fuel theyl be using

     

    Imola's a good one! But I personally think no Corner can beat Eau Rogue at Spa.

  16. 20 hours ago, Cherry Petal said:

    I really love space! I've been wanting to get a really nice telescope but there's too many trees where I live currently. At least there's JWST pictures to get excited over, and some really good progress happening on space travel too!

    Yay!!! Another Space Nerd joins the Ranks.

    I just found Apollo Radio Chatter videos on Youtube. Great to fall asleep to!

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