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TenshiDrop

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  1. I'm still struggling with this, and I feel that. I found out that it IS a complusion, because I often feel like I have to do it even if I'm not mentally aroused. Maybe it is a depression thing, I've been going through real rough times and heavy mood swings. On top of compulsive masturbation I've been going on spending sprees and stress eating.. I should probably get in touch with my therapist asap.
  2. Does anyone have some simple pee scenarios that are perhaps drawable?.. Asking for a friend :3

    1. Ms. Tito

      Peeing in an alleyway after a long night of drinking (Any gender, position, or genitalia would be welcome.) 

    2. LydiaPrower8

      I'd like to see you draw more FNF pee art, if you're OK with that, of course.

  3. I'm rising from the dead for a bit to share a very important message.

    Always relax and treat yourself after any sexual activity, whether it be alone or with a partner. The warmth of some nice, wholesome aftercare is the most comforting and satisfying feeling in the world ^w^

    Also, happy Pride Month!

    💛🤍💜🖤 💖💛💙

  4. I don't think I'll be taking a full hiatus from this site, I've just decided to be less active. Any more advice on the thread I posted is appreciated.

  5. First off, thank you so much for this, your advice means a lot. I've been trying to find out what my options are for trying to reduce my physical sex drive at least to a point where I can go a day or two without having to please myself. About the physical injury thing, I heard PTSD is a physical injury to the brain in the way because it affects how the brain functions. Part of it may also be my depression, and the excessive sexual desire is just my brain trying to crank out more dopamine. Also partner and I are doing fine, he had a similar problem for a while that he believes affected some things. Once again, thank you so much for this! It helps a bunch ^^
  6. Warning: This will get into some potentially unsettling/triggering topics as I will be discussing a bit of my trauma and personal details about my life. If you're not comfortable with mentions of several types of abuse, I recommend you don't read this. I might as well get this out of the way since I can't sleep. I'm sorry if my typing is weird or I don't make sense, it's really early in the morning at the time I'm writing this. Also, I guess this is an announcement of some sorts as well. I'll get that part out of the way and explain why. A few decisions have been made, and part of it is that I'm going to take a hiatus from this site in the near future. It was a little tough to decide on, because this community is among the best I have ever been in. Everyone is so kind and understanding, and I enjoyed helping others here too. I don't think talking about this will be a problem seeing how the people here are, and I hope someone will take the time to read this and maybe give a few words of advice. First, a little a bit about myself to give you a better idea of my situation. I'm 19, queer, non-binary (they/them), assigned female at birth, currently in a long-distance relationship. I'm finishing up my last year of high school, planning on going to college later this year. I had to repeat a year in middle school, which explains the mismatched age and grade. I'm on the autism spectrum, and I have been diagnosed with depression and anxiety as well (taken meds for both at some point). I also have C-PTSD from emotional/mental abuse throughout my childhood, as well as CSA and repeated online grooming. A full plate of mental conditions, I know. They might be part of the issue, but the main issue here is my hypersexuality.. at least I think that's what it is. It likely resulted from my trauma as well as genetics, which I won't elaborate further on since I've probably overshared enough. Sexual things are almost always on my mind. Sometimes I get distracted from working or focusing on something due to thoughts of sex flooding my mind, and said thoughts can be intrusive at times. I masturbate a minimum of 2-3 times daily on average, often putting myself in risky situations to do so especially since I still live with my family as of now. I don't always view porn when I masturbate, I mostly rely on my own fantasies and mind to do so, but occasionally I will go on here and browse the gallery as well as on other sites since my sexual interests vary greatly. But occasionally after doing so, I'll feel ashamed of myself because of how much I do it and the fact that I get off the most to very obscure and taboo fetishes. I feel like it's unhealthy, and maybe even unsafe in several ways. Not to mention, I get aroused very easily, even at a mere thought of something that I get off to, or a slight touch in certain areas. It's been like this for at many years. I know that it isn't normal, and it causes trouble in my life. There are many things that happened because of it; first off, when I was younger, I drove off several people because I talked/joked about sex-related things so much. My mother even told me at some point that I was "obsessed with sex" because she had noticed my behavior. Now I'd never make direct advances toward anyone without their consent, and never have, but I still made quite a few people uncomfortable with the topics I frequently discussed. Second off, when my long-distance partner came over to visit (who has a much lower sex drive than me), there were a few times where I kept getting aroused when we cuddled while he wasn't in the mood. I felt really guilty for it, and it feels as if I'm too much for him with that. Though he has never said that I'm too much, and we have set boundaries with each other and promised to be honest. I trust that he would tell me if I crossed a line since I would do the same for him, even so I still feel an underlying sense of shame because I fear that I did cross it at some point.. and what if he never told me? Not to mention, when we had sex for the first time (with both of us being virgins before), he kept putting himself down thinking he wasn't able to please me enough.. which I was pretty pleased, but I wonder if my sexual desires are too demanding or too much for him to handle? I'm really afraid of that, because if I ever hurt him I'd never forgive myself. I want to be the best partner I can be for him, and not be overbearing, or even worse make him feel upset or hurt. I'm just, so ashamed of myself and at this point it's safe to say I might have a sex addiction. I know it's incredibly damaging to my self-esteem (which is something else I'm trying to improve on) as well as both my physical and mental health. Therefore, I have made the decision to reduce how much I look at porn, or maybe even stop it altogether. That means deleting all the pornographic material on my devices besides my own drawings, and avoiding risky sites. I'm also going to try to masturbate less (limiting it to once or twice a week maybe) and find better ways to distract and deter my mind when the horny thoughts come creeping in. I want to build a better self-esteem, improve aspects of my relationship, and hopefully overcome my excessive sexual desires. Part of that also means leaving this site for an undetermined amount of time; but before I go, I need some help here. What other steps can I take? How am I going to tell my partner, and how can we work together? Should I even get my partner involved, or is this something I should do completely on my own? Should I tell a therapist? Any advice is appreciated, and thank you for taking the time to read this if you did. Sorry I dragged this on for so long.
  7. What would make cooking even better? Wearing a neko maid outfit. What would make a neko maid outfit even better? Some cute padding underneath.

  8. Horny aside, I have actually been learning to cook. It's fun!

  9. I know this relates to a bad stereotype but..

    I really wanna be able cook and clean for my partner. I'd get on my hands and knees for him and be his cute little cuntboy housespouse. Even if I had to pee really bad, I'd keep working just for him so he can relax.

    1. TenshiDrop

      able to*
      ugh my horny grammar

  10. With the sheer amounts of caffeine in coffee, I'm sure Espresso's bladder gets full pretty easily.
  11. I'd honestly love to talk about my elaborate sexual fantasies with someone, but not all of them are pee-related.. Man idk, I'm just bored with some undertones of horny in the back of my mind.
    Also, just to clarify, I am not looking for a partner. I'm demisexual and already taken!

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    2. Ms. Tito

      That is such a mood.

    3. Sonador

      Honestly, same! I could really use someone to idly fantasize at. It's a great pass-time and helps me stay motivated/in the mood while I work on horny projects. If you're lookin' to chat about kinks, pee or otherwise, and want someone that won't get all up in your bzns about interpersonal stuff or relationships, hit me up on Discord! It should be on my profile under About Me. I think.

    4. Racergirl1404

      @Sonador what’s your Discord user ?

  12. The transmasculine urge to piss all over someone, have them piss all over you, and embrace each other while drenched in urine.

    1. Ms. Tito

      Honestly, with how many guys are surprisingly willing and eager to relieve themselves brazenly wherever they want to, it baffles me that most of them don't have a pee fetish. 

       

      EDIT: This is not a complaint about guys peeing in public btw. If you have known me for more than five seconds you would know I fucking love to see it. 

  13. Good afternoon, lovelies! I recently got into Cookie Run and found something interesting.

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  14. So cuuute! I wanna look like you one day >w<
  15. I love being sexually degraded and humiliated. I guess it's because of the fact that feeling inferior and good for nothing except being a toy, turns me on a lot. Public humiliation is a liiiittle bit iffy for me, I more so prefer if it were just a dominant partner and maybe a few of their friends. Either way, being laughed at and called disgusting.. just hits different you know?
  16. I really wanna piss on someone some day. Maybe I'll put that on my bucket list.

  17. Also I'm totally not masturbating in a bathroom stall. It's just the THC talkin

  18. Fuuuck I underestimated how great it is to be high and horny.

  19. Woah, I'm back from yet another hiatus? Perhaps.

    1. LydiaPrower8

      And I'm here with more pictures!

    2. LydiaPrower8

      Aaaaand I just did a fic.

  20. I just want Daddy to make me hold in my pee hhhhh

    1. Racergirl1404

      Tell him. I’m sure he’ll do it for you 

    2. TenshiDrop

      We're a long distance couple and he's gonna be busy more often.. but next time we get a little hot and heavy I may ask. He's not into omo/pee stuff as much as I am but knowing him he'd probably be open to try.

    3. Racergirl1404

      Well there ya go. You’ve got a place to start

  21. I wonder if I'll ever gain the guts to go out in public while diapered.

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    2. peelion

      I remember how it was the first time I bought a pack of nappies in a shop and had to carry them on foot in a too small bag
      so wearing one ... 

    3. thiswasnty

      I've done it in very limited circumstances (e.g. walking the dog in winter with a big long coat on) but my desire to not have to explain/defend/justify/admit/etc. the whole thing outweighs any desire to do more than that. Honestly, those rare instances have been more about being too lazy to take it off than any theoretical thrill to be gained from public wearing.

    4. peelion

      the dream of a walk for 2 in a peaceful, playful layer 🥰

  22. My younger brother walked in on me masturbating while on a call with my partner and I'm still embarrassed as hell. Poor kid looked utterly traumatized by the sight of me spread out on my bed with a "toy". It sucks that there isn't a lock on my door, but at least he knows to knock now.

    1. D0nt45k

      We've all had this happen at some point, whether we were on the giving or receiving end of such "views".

    2. markbassplayer

      That's rough.  it will probably be a "let us never speak of this" kind of thing, if that makes you feel any better!

  23. Is it too much to ask to be able to wear a cute diaper, to feel myself filling it up with hot, fresh pee? Then just to squish it and feel the warmth against my crotch?

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    2. Donnajoe

      If don’t want to talk to them openly about it maybe if have way to hide from them and do it somewhere like public park or hike or such

    3. riverstoned

      I have the same problem. If you have access to an old bikini bottom/underwear you’re willing to wash, panty liners, and a clean rag/towel to roll up, you have a messy home made diaper…just use it in the bathroom.

  24. Hoo boy, sorry for the long hiatus! I won't go into all the details as to why I was gone for so long but yeah. Feels pretty good to be back.

    1. LydiaPrower8

      Welcome back, my friend! I've drawn a few pictures since you were gone!

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