TheCrazyOne

I think it's your subconscious trying to push you to go 24/7 the cause is likely mental since muscles don't atrophy that fast. But I would watch out for any changes, if you still have this problem after a week you should visit an urologist to check up. I know it's embarrassing but to be blunt a proper professional doesn't judge, they just check for health issues.

I am incontinent and sort of an ABDL Most people around me know I wear and they know about my Little lifestyle. I keep the kink parts to myself and consenting partners. I think it would be best not to bring it up, most people tend to not really notice diapers unless it's pointed out to them. I mean I had a relative visit and and somehow stay entirely oblivious to this, (not the original packages but the same constellation)

The 8th one has been spanked, that red butt says it all. Strange as it sounds, I'm kinda jealous. I mean I'm in diapers, but I don't have a mommy or daddy Dom to spank me like that.

This brings back memories, my girlfriend used to sneak castor oil into my food sometimes (Consensual!, this is not something you just do for a laugh!) To be honest small amounts just made it difficult to hold for me, but that feeling of having trouble holding like being back in potty-training, it was one of my favorites.

I've watched from the shadows for a long time… Now I finally got the courage to make my first few posts. I'm somewhat of an ABDL, but it's more of a non-sexual lifestyle to me. I do have an occasional spanking kink that I like mixing with age-play, having my Dom treat me like a misbehaving Brat and punish me. Before becoming incontinent two years ago, I had a thing for bathroom control mixed with humiliation, wearing pull-ups (Drynites actually) and having to ask permission to go potty and being made to either wet myself or use a plastic-potty. I still have this fetish but I can't indulge anymore. It's complicated I know, but just playing with baby-toys or wearing diapers is like watching TV for me, it's a way to relax, nothing sexual about it, at least to me. Now that's my introduction for now…

I can relate… a lot, in my teens I thought I broken for wanting to wear diapers and be small again. It took me a long time to accept who I am but realizing diapers are not sexual to me helped with the guilt. Feeling small is more of a lifestyle to me, it's how I manage to feel safe at home. Coming to terms with my wants and needs was a long struggle, I hope you can make peace with your desires too.