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MasterXploder

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    MasterXploder got a reaction from Catboy in Having fallen into the Hololive rabbit hole recently, I can't help but wonder what wo   
    @AD51
    I mean that when I think of this scenario, I imagine the anime avatar and character they use, not the real person behind the persona.
    @Cherylicious
    Yep, right here
    https://youtu.be/7anff141mtg
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    MasterXploder got a reaction from MrsLittleleaks in So why is there no Astral Chain Omorashi? A game that canonically lets the character   
    Niche game that didn't have much staying power in the gaming community, as most of Platinum's titles turn out, sadly.
    I once thought of Marie really needing to go while she's giving a tour in the Lappy outfit, but it didn't materialize enough for me to write a whole story about it. If you can make it work, feel free to use it.
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    MasterXploder reacted to Red Simpson in I’ve been having a much tougher time these last few days. Everything seemed to be goi   
    @RagingPython I now 100% understand how you feel for the past month my self esteem has deteriorated and with that my confidence drops i know what the problem is as you saw but i feel i can't do anything to sort it out as of right now I'm covered in my duvet contemplating life itself i hate myself and everything i stand for everywhere
    i look i see people who are far more lucky than i am which just makes me hate myself more i don't want to live but i can't commit suicide so I'm stuck in hell
    So i feel your pain 100%
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    MasterXploder reacted to WailinJenny in I’ve been having a much tougher time these last few days. Everything seemed to be goi   
    It isn't a waste at all, from anyone. You are worthy of sympathy, empathy, and concern. 
    And of course I'm sure its strange from some random person on the internet, but if you'd like to talk, I'm here to listen. And if anyone else offers that, they mean it too. They wouldn't do so otherwise. 
    I'm not going to pretend I understand exactly what you feel, because that wouldn't be fair. I've definitely been through my share of feeling isolated, unbearable emotional pain, suicidality, self-hatred, and more, but each of our journeys are different. 
    My only advice is to seek out help (in whatever form that means to you), even if you don't want to. 'Cause that tends to be when you need it the most. 
    Sending positive energy your way! 
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    MasterXploder reacted to Tangosierra97 in I’ve been having a much tougher time these last few days. Everything seemed to be goi   
    This anonymous corner of the internet believes in you. 
    Depression+anxiety is a beast. A beast that lives by eating you. I've seen it. It is not a failure on your part that this beast exists. 
    People out there love you. Find and cherish as much of their company as you can manage. 
    The fact that you worry about being selfish means you are not. Selfish people don't care about others. 
    Please see a professional who can help as soon as you can manage. They have better knowledge and tools than we here do. And just like the beast can spiral into being huge, the reverse is also true: good emotions feed on good emotions. Take care of yourself. 
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    MasterXploder got a reaction from RagingPython in I’ve had probably the best weekend since before my mental health took a downturn a fe   
    Glad to hear you've been feeling better recently. Hope it stays that way, but on the off-chance that you feel horrible like that again, please seek help. Admittedly, there's only so much random forum-goers on the internet can do to help you through a tough spot, and even just getting some emergency prescription meds from the doctor can do wonders for your issues.
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    MasterXploder reacted to slovenc79 in I’ve been doing some research into what might be affecting me. I think if anything, i   
    firsty i would suggest not to research for diagnoses on the internet. not just that there's tons of false information everywhere, but due to your condition you cannot objectively determine what's going on with you. if you read about various symptoms about everything online, you will immediately start feeling them and subconsciously try to convince yourself you have found the anwser. 
    secondly - it will be a lot less worrying for your family if you talk to them instead of doing something horrible the next time you will feel like you did. talk to them in a calm way, and they will not get too worried. 
    i think the best thing for you would be to look for a good psychologist. 
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    MasterXploder got a reaction from RagingPython in I’ve been doing some research into what might be affecting me. I think if anything, i   
    Have you tried talking to your mother, or another family member who has this disorder, about this? If it's a genetic thing, then they may have a lot of helpful advice for you, like what they did to get through the worst of it. Like I said before, there's always someone to reach out to for these problems, and it can make all the difference in helping you work through them. Keep hanging in there. You got this.
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    MasterXploder got a reaction from RagingPython in The thoughts won’t stop... the noise won’t stop... the pain won’t end... I can’t take   
    Remember the breathing exercise I told you about? Breathe in four seconds, hold four seconds, breathe out four seconds, repeat three times. Do this. Stop whatever else you're doing and just breathe. Focus on nothing but your breathing. If you have a thought, just acknowledge you had the thought and return to your breathing.
    Remind yourself that what you are experiencing is a temporary episode. No matter how intense or hopeless, it will pass and you will feel better again. Your present state is not forever. You can get through this and get the life you want.
    When you calm down, I strongly urge you to visit your doctor and tell them about these attacks you're having. I know you said you have trouble articulating your thoughts, so maybe print out these updates you've been posting and read them out loud. They will be able to help you better than I can through a computer, either by prescribing medication, referring you to a therapist, or both.
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    MasterXploder got a reaction from RagingPython in Oh god... I don’t even know what’s happening to me right now. I can’t explain it. I d   
    If talking directly to someone is a little too much, maybe try using other tools? There's a phone app called Sanvello that's made for helping people through anxiety, depression, stress, etc. It can give you a lot of useful tools and techniques, plus you can talk to other people using the app. The important thing is to keep trying and moving forward, even if it's just in baby steps.
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    MasterXploder got a reaction from Red Simpson in Oh god... I don’t even know what’s happening to me right now. I can’t explain it. I d   
    If talking directly to someone is a little too much, maybe try using other tools? There's a phone app called Sanvello that's made for helping people through anxiety, depression, stress, etc. It can give you a lot of useful tools and techniques, plus you can talk to other people using the app. The important thing is to keep trying and moving forward, even if it's just in baby steps.
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    MasterXploder reacted to RagingPython in Oh god... I don’t even know what’s happening to me right now. I can’t explain it. I d   
    @MasterXploder
    Thank you. I tried your method earlier, it really helped. After that, I calmed down a lot. I’ve still been more anxious and fragile than normal, but it helped so much.
    You’re right, it must’ve been a panic attack. It’s been years since I had one, I’d forgotten what they were like, but after you said it was one I remembered how they feel. The one I had today was really bad though... I still don’t know what caused it though.
    I can’t believe I forgot what they were like, it was such a terrifying experience, it honestly felt like I couldn’t think properly... I still can’t explain it now, but it was awful.
    I know I really should talk to someone about this... but it’s too hard. It feels like I can’t tell anyone. I don’t know why, I think it’s a combination of things, my general anxiety around people, the fact that I don’t want anyone to worry about me... Most of all, I think I’m just scared...  I don’t think I could bring myself to do it... Even on my own though, I have to keep it up, I can’t give in. I can get though the bad parts if I stay focused and hopeful.
    @Red Simpson
    Thank you. Even just hearing that there are people who still support me even after everything else is so nice... it makes it easier to remember that I’m important, and that I matter just as much as everyone else. You’re right too, I can’t give up, I’ve made it this far, I can make it to the end.
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    MasterXploder got a reaction from RagingPython in Oh god... I don’t even know what’s happening to me right now. I can’t explain it. I d   
    Stop whatever you're doing. Find somewhere comfortable to sit down. Breathe in slowly for four seconds. Hold that breath for four seconds. Exhale for four seconds. Repeat this three more times, focusing only on your breath. If you have anxious thoughts while doing this, just acknowledge that you had the thought and let it be, returning your attention to the breathing.
    What you are experiencing is a panic attack. It's intense and feels all-consuming, but it's not dangerous and will pass over time. You are still in control of yourself. You will be okay.
    When you have calmed down, I strongly suggest getting in contact with a doctor or therapist. Just someone you can talk to face-to-face who can help you through your problems. What you are feeling right now is not forever. You can fight this and get the life you want.
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    MasterXploder reacted to Kei in Hey all. You might be wondering why I'm not posting so much in the last couple weeks.   
    Take your time, eh?
    Your health and well being come before anything else.
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    MasterXploder reacted to Temporary-O5 in Hey all. You might be wondering why I'm not posting so much in the last couple weeks.   
    Just take your time, man. I definitely understand what's up, so no need to rush it, even if by the end of this month is a reasonable time.
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    MasterXploder reacted to EmesiraGimil in Hey all. You might be wondering why I'm not posting so much in the last couple weeks.   
    Take care, man. I hope things will get sorted out soon enough.
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    MasterXploder got a reaction from Anubis in i wanna get rid of these discord notifications.   
    If you have AdBlock or Ublock Origin, you can use their block element function to remove it from the screen.
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    MasterXploder got a reaction from daniel2 in i wanna get rid of these discord notifications.   
    If you have AdBlock or Ublock Origin, you can use their block element function to remove it from the screen.
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    MasterXploder got a reaction from Night Rain in To those who wished me a happy birthday thank you.   
    I'll take one of those thanks. Happy Birthday!
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    MasterXploder got a reaction from Kyuu in Should I really do it?   
    This sounds ominous...
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    MasterXploder got a reaction from Sake in Sometimes, the only thing worse than no omo art of a character you love existing, is   
    If it doesn't exist, make it exist. That's what got me into writing fanfiction in the first place, and also why I commission artists to draw stuff for me. Case in point:
     
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    MasterXploder got a reaction from AuthorFaust in Why does Fire emblem have so, many cute girls?   
    Gotta get people to spend money on gacha pulls somehow.
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    MasterXploder reacted to PPP in You mean writing fanfiction about characters nobody cares about in games nobody's pla   
    Don't take it personally; you need 650 rep points and that's a tall order.
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    MasterXploder got a reaction from Lisk in Faust needs to get motivated to do Commission work.... He wants to be irresponsible i   
    Let Komi-san help you get motivated.

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